^AngeL |NsouciaN?....

September 11th, 2007

it was tiring...but everything comes to an end..theres a bit hesitation to still continue but im still fighting... its not really a sure win but i've been here...i've done it and theres no turning back! a lot of distraction occured..paRanoia keeps pulling up my sleeves and telling me to stop... but what can i do... if in my mind...i dont even have the courage to stand alone and pretend i can really be on my own!? its tiring....yeah! but its what i want...and im gonna keep it...gawd! i feeL awfuL... but i still think im pRetty! yeah Right...

thing is...

i think im still happy....

even though inside...

im really dying....

but its a pay off somehow...

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Posted by AiA at 12:15 AM | kapow...

September 13th, 2007

='(

its aLReady our tRansition..and it fReaking scaRes me...i think i aLReady met my team LeadeR..yeah! he Looks nice...gawd! i hope my TL wouLd be someone Like omaR...whose veRy patient with me...yes..he made me feeL neRvous aLL the time...but now i want someone Like him to be aRound and to teLL me what to do and what not to do... i dont think i can do this just yet...but i have to...yeah Right this is what i've signed foR.. tsk..why on eaRth do i have to be in the most diffcuLt technicaL account in cvg eveR?! tsk... oh weLL... whateveR happens... yeah Right... just Like what everyone says... "dont give up..." yeah Right... gawd! i need to sLeep....

*yawn...

Posted by AiA at 10:34 PM | kapow...

September 27th, 2007

finaLLY..

he said he wont get my password.. he'll spare me... just make sure i'm not playing around..the hell...im not... i just dont want someone to barge in to my privacy... 'guess im still not yet ready to shaRe my 'whoLe' Life with someone..even if he's my boyfRiend...aLL i'm asking for him is to tRust me...im ReaLLy not doing anything to mess up the ReLationship

Posted by AiA at 07:21 PM | kapow...

September 28th, 2007

hey...

4 and a haLf moRe houRs and i'LL be 22...

cReepy...
but can i stop the time?!

oh weLL...
i stiLL Look young right?!
hahaha...

pLans?!

i'LL be watching a movie LateR
with PaoLo caLLed 'no ReseRvation'
at 11am..
afteR my shift
which ends at 5am
then...go home
bond with my famiLy, nieces and nephew
then..pRobabLy take a nap
then at 8pm..
go to woRk again...
*sigh...*
as much as i wanted to spend much time
with my Loved ones..i cant Right?!
this is Like a disadvantage of
getting a high compensation
yet dont even have time foR youR own seLf.
yikes...

Posted by AiA at 11:44 AM | kapow...

September 30th, 2007

intRoveRt...

AiA

i feeL aLone...
weiRd...
i've neveR feLt this way
foR about a yeaR now..
but now...
i need to be aLone...

the waRm embRace
the midnight snacks we had eveRy 3am
shaRing of thoughts...
singing and pLaying the guitaR...
teasing each otheR...
hitting each otheR...
Laughing so haRd...
cRying...
pLaying...
acting...
staRing and smiLing...
asking what's wRong...
assuming youR aLways wRong
beating youRseLf...
bLaming youRseLf...
ouR heaRt's bLeeding
pLeading...
Leading...
misLeading..
Lying...
dying..
wanting...
needing...
it's gone!!!

aLL of a sudden i feeL Like
i dont need it anymoRe...
i dont need him anymoRe...

noR i need anyone in my Life...

stop asking why i'm Like this...

i dont have any answeR...

Posted by AiA at 03:37 PM | kapow...