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I aRRived 11pm Last SatuRday

we still tRavelled 1 and a half hours to get home

so, we rode a cab and the dRiver is very very talkative

im with my uncle who fetch me at the airport

So when I arrived

I ate

And  don’t have time to weep Right?

So I slept then..

Now, Its my 2^nd day in singapoRe

And Last night…

I cRied myseLf to sLeep

I miss everybody..

I miss paoLo

Well, im used of being away from home

But now…I feel really alone

But I don’t really feel this during the day

I feel terrible at  night

When im about to sleep…I cant help but cry…

I just miss being hugged everytime I sleep

I miss the pinch that he does everytime

And him always stroking my hair.. :’(

I miss someone who kiss me everynight and says goodnight

I cant sleep…I feel like I need to be kissed first before I sleep

But he’s not here and its so hard!!

I really really miss him!!!

I remember when my whole family and him led me to the airport

I don’t really feel like leaving then

But when I saw the aiRpoRt…and I feel like were near… I began to cry

I leaned on his shoulder…and he hugged me much tighter

he’s just quiet…but I can feel he wants to cry with me

my whole family were teasing me to cry… but they failed

I cried in the taxi na noh! so…no I didn’t cry there :-p

Anyways…so he walked me through the entrance gate and said

“totoo ba to? Aalis ka na? sana panaginip lang to! taRa takas na Lang tau!”

I said..”Loko Loko…hahantingin tau ng mga pamilya ko noh!”

But really… now, I regret I didn’t do that!! :’(

oh yes! she's aLL mine...napuLot ko d2 sa singapoRe and iLL call heR...hmmm..gagie...hahahah pinagsama ko ang singapoRe+angie.. "Gagie"  hahah..nice! ang ganda ng gitaRa waLang scRatch oR anything...tinapon Lang xa.. but anyways..she's mine now... its actuaLLy my fiRst time to hand a cLassicaL guitaR...saRap sa tenga! hmmm..yeah! pictoRiaL agad c gagie pagdating sa kwaRto ko...hmmm smiLe smiLe gagie... Lets both smiLe...hahaha

 

 

i dont know...i dont ReaLLy have anything to say...i just feeL so down... i dont ReaLLy know why i chose to feeL this... weLL, aLL i wanna say... is i want to go back home!! i miss eveRything!!!

im toRn! yes,i want a new fone...my sony eRicson k530i..yet i dont wanna Lose my nokia 6131... i mean... im a keepeR of oLd msgs..you know!? waaaaahh... but i guess i've to delete them...i cant find ways to transfeR them to my new one...it sucks! buLLsh*t! huhuhuh

 

 

I can feel it..

He’s never like this before…

He’s becoming numb…

 

 

‘guess its my turn to be numb too…

 

I’ve been to OrchaRd just a few hours ago

It was an hour ride thru MRT

I just read Chicken Soup for Woman’s Soul thru there so I didn’t get bored!

So, yeah! I submitted my resume

And hopefully…I’m going to wait for a call,

Hell, I hope they won’t call

I just did it because I want to follow what my untie is saying..

Submit this, submit that… go here, go there! yaddah yaddah… ok!

And also, I’m trying my luck and im trying my charisma.. hahah

If you’ll ask me

I’m eager to go home…

 

Why?!

 

There’s a Lot of Reasons why…

Firstly, I miss my family so bad!

I miss my sisters though we’re always yelling and nagging each other

But its fine and I think its normal besides we’re all girls! Heheh =p

I miss cleaning my nephews and my niece’s toys after they play

though it annoys me big time!

I miss my mom and the way she text me when I’m not going home for the whole week =p

You see, even if everything is in this house…

All the appliances, the heater which is my favorite, PSP, DVD, tivo, 2 laptop and a desktop, microwave, the mega gigantic TV, FOOD!!

And I mean FOOD! Really… Lots of FOOD!!!

I mean everything…. I still want to go home!

And what do we have back home?!

Not much but…

You see… I want to go back

because even if im living a luxurious life right now…

I don’t need it and I don’t want it!! Not without my family

If you’ll ask me…I want to stay here… its nice, safe, clean, yeah!

No snatchers, no calamity, no traffic, you can walk around at 3am and you’re perfectly safe, there’s even people jogging around at 3am…

But if im gonna stay here without my family…

I’d rather not!

AND!

Here’s the deal… the salary for a technical support here usually is $1,200

So yeah.. convert it to peso.. what do you get?! 36k …

But heres the thing.. minus your everyday fare.. my untie says its about $150.

Plus food..lets say… 3 dollars a day… which probably would be just a fried potato without drinks… Well, McDonalds here cost $5.90.. so lets make it that way $5 times 30 $150…

So yeah! Try to do all the computing

And what do you get?!

Just enough…. Just enough for me to go back home!

I mean I can have that kinda salary back home…

though not really but its still not worth it!

Right!? I mean..why do I have to go here?!

Oh I know why… stupid me… im going to Australia..

But that’s another case…

Right now, I just miss the comfort of my own home

Though here is convenient, I still miss home!

Plus here I can’t even have a bottle of beer…