May 5th, 2008
..ouch...
ok...
so finally..
the month of march and apRiL is thRu..
i could probably say that those months
was the most painful months i've had in my entire life
i've been huRt
physically..
emotionally..
mentally..
good thing about it is that
he never left me..
and im feeling that all the promises that he made will be kept..
i know now how much he'll never let me go..even if he has to..
and the word "take care of me" was actually sincere and true..
you know the feeling of being guilty of the things you've done?
and you have no face to show?
i've felt that..
but he never ever did let go of me
and that adds up..
the guilt is overflowing..
his hands clasp tighter into mine
even if i've tried to release from it
he wont allow me..
i've cried a river..
for doing silly things..
but i've never fooled him, ive never had someone..
but i've been hiding things
and im not good at it..
and eventually i told him about it..
and it hurts him..
but even so..he said he still wants me and wont let go of me...
and im thanking god for giving such a wonderful man...
now...
i could say that i've learned a lot
and i'll continue learning
to value him..
to value things..
to trust every single word from his mouth..
because its not just sweet...
its reaL..
